Just DAMN! DAMN, DAMN, DAMN! &*()) &*()*_)

I just got back in from my consult with the oral surgeon... DAMN!

Ok, my peculiar ass has 5 wisdom teeth not 4 so he has decided to remove the fifth one and leave the one that it came in beside alone, the impacted one has to come out because I have a cavity right where it's resting on the tooth next to it and the one up top needs to come out as well, then the one that is bothering me has to come out.

Considering I am 31, those jokers are in unusually tight spots sooooooo that means, a 10 day recovery, one week off from work along with two weeks of swelling pain killers, antibiotics, mouth wash and a "soft diet".

I swear as I was driving home I just had to sit and wonder can't anything in my life I mean ANYTHING be easy? A fifth tooth? Like my girlfriend said, "Only you."

On top of that I am not going to get put all the way out. Light sedation with local anesthesia. That is as unaware as they will allow for me to be.

I was a little uneasy when they showed me the "brief video" on wisdom teeth... ok my ass was SCARED. I was sitting there holding my mouth and rocking back and forth as the video played along all the while eyeing the door while making plans to make a break for it when the nurse came back in.

She came in and asked if I was scare and I said, "YES!" Then she told me no worries I will be ok and left me to wait for the doctor. The only thing that calmed my nerves was Taylor Dane's "I'll Always Love You" playing through the speakers. It took me back to some happy times in my life, then the doctor rolled in dropped the truth on me and now I am PETRIFIED.

Ok... now that I have gotten all that out of my system I am slightly ok. My level of fright has been reduced from petrified to scared.

Ahhh Hump Day...

I am so tired right now but I suppose that is what happens when you make an executive decision to watch the season premiere of Keysha Cole and stay up late to catch the rerun of the new episode of Real Housewives of Atlanta.

Why do they put all the good shows on at the same time on Tuesday night?? Damn! I missed SVU as well. Why don't they spread the love? There is never anything good on TV Wednesday night, now that is a night that needs some love. I think I may need to look into getting a DVR I refuse to be chasing reruns for the rest of my life.

Anyway...

I can officially say my girlfriend is walking corruption. She quickly infiltrates the brain and has me remembering her evil comments and bursting out in fits of uncontrollable laughter through out the day. People are wondering what in the world is going on with me.

Last night during a scene on Real House Wives of Atlanta (RHOA), Dwight (NeNe's Friends) revealed his secret for being 50 years old but looking like he was 30 years old. He said he has sex three times a day... out of the silence my girlfriend said, "I believe it. Look at his KNEES! Just look at them."

That comment is still with me and as I posted a comment to another girlfriend on our list serve I found the comment replaying in my head and busted out laughing. I am not sure if I posted what I originally wanted to post. This is the second time this week she has done this to me and it much stop. LOL!

....... Ok I am calm now. The laughter is over and the excitement has set in as tomorrow is Thursday which is some what the end of my work week as I work Fridays from home. Fridays tend to be really, really, quiet so I take time to multitask between getting some work out of the way for the following two weeks and getting house work out of the way.

I am so looking forward to this weekend; child free, good company, food, wine, good cheer and maybe even a little love. But with everything I have to make it through the day... I have the appointment with the oral surgeon. I am hoping this surgery is not going to go outside of the benefits limits for my dental insurance (saying a prayer) and then tomorrow a special some one is coming to visit me at my office for a spell, so I suppose I can wait out for the weekend as there are many good things to come along the way to it.

These Kids Today...

Yesterday evening I walked into the daycare to find the owner holding the door to their "time out room" I hear what sounded like a wild animal in there trying to get out. The door was rattling, the young child was in there screaming. The owner was red and sweating like she just took a 45 min aerobics class and she had a look of fear on her face. I asked her how she was doing, she told me she had better day. My being the concerned person I am asked her, what was wrong? She then said, "I just got beat down by a five year old. I am trying to hold him in here until his uncle or mother comes for him."

Damn, is it like that. As I went to go pick up my child thinking she has a wonderful day to my dismay Tyson cut the hell up. She was out on the play ground and tried to poke a little boy in the eye with a stick. Her teacher took said stick away and threw it in the trash. Tyson was then ordered to the corner for time out and threw one of her infamous temper tantrums. She then proceeded to inform her teacher that she was going to "tell my mommy" (me) and the teacher said, "No I am going to tell Mommy" and then that is when my child had to take it a step further... she threatened to pee on herself out of sheer anger and she did.

In away this was one of those instances where you go some where and giggle then you come back and discipline. I don't know what has gotten into her she turned 3 and just decided she was going to break bad on everyone. Well I took away her TV and she went to bed early only to wake up, cut up and receive a spanking before everything was all said and done. When will they learn??

Now I pose this question to you, how many five year olds can you take on in a fight??

http://www.howmanyfiveyearoldscouldyoutakeinafight.com/

Playing With Fire...

What is it about a situation where you know you are clearly playing with fire but you simply can't stop? I mean the situation has you so mesmerized and in your moral mind , your rationale mind you know that you need to stop but there is a part that wonders how close can you get to the flame with out getting burned??

Is there ever an instance where you can play with fire even for a little bit and not get burned?

Anyway...

I have been trying to figure out how to help a friend with out creating a false hope that there is going to be something more than a friendship with this person. Yes, this person and I used to date many moons ago and we dated off and on for years; but once you do me wrong and/or cross me I cannot fathom ever going back with that person no matter how much they may have changed. Something happens and I look at people different, I act differently and the dynamics of our situation along with my feelings for them tend to change. I eventually come to a point where I can be friends with them because I still care, but that is how I do after the love is gone.

Story of my life, they don't appreciate me when they have me then regret it after I leave. Now I am trying not to hurt feelings in the midst of just trying to be a good friend. :(

I am usually good at side stepping certain conversations and questions (I could be a politician LOL!) but when a person tells you that they love you, there is no side stepping it. In this case it was just awkward silence, I don't tell some one that I love them if I don't. To me love is a serious expression of feelings that needs not to be played with. Anyway, I know that does not matter to him... I am sure he is thinking that once he gets back to the east coast it is game on and he will change things...I seriously doubt that would be possible...

It is so amazing to be loved but it makes for a messed up situation when you just don't feel the same in return.

I Got Checked....

To kick off the birthday events I took the kids out to eat at the Olive Garden (I love Olive Garden) as I sat down I began to feel as though I wanted a glass of wine with my entree, so I asked the waitress for a glass of White Zinfandel. As I took a sip from the glass my son asked me if it was "real wine" I told him yes and then here came the lecture on drinking.

He felt as though just because I drank a glass of wine that I was going to become an alcoholic... apparently this is what they taught them in school and Lord knows what their father has told them. So, I for the sake of enlightening I asked him to explain to me what they told him in school. I got this, " my teacher said that you cuss, fight, hurt people's feelings and then you get in a car, crash and die."

So I spent all of dinner trying to undo what the teacher did and explained to him that alcohol is ok in moderation and then when I caught myself breaking down to him the difference in wine and liquor I just figured I would stop; I was giving him to much information.

Overall it has been quite an exhausting weekend and next weekend if my child free weekend so I shall find something to do with myself and relax.

This Is The Day...

That the Lord has most certainly made as three years ago today at 4:30 AM the angles in heaven sang a perfect song as my daughter made her grand entrance into this world.



Last night I had the hardest time getting to sleep because I could not take my eyes off of her. The pain and discomfort of 18 hours of labor was most certainly worth it. Lil Bit has grown and blossomed into a beautiful, extremely intelligent and loving kid.



As always my prayers, dreams and hopes is for her to be whole, healthy, accomplished and happy.



Happy Birthday Baby. Mommy Loves you...

Brighter Day...

I know there was much excitement in the air amongst many Americans yesterday as we took back our country by choosing a competent president to lead this country, but for some reason i was in a serious funk.

I am not quite sure if it was a combination of PMS, being on pain meds for my teeth, the nervousness of having to have all 4 teeth removed, and a whole host of other things I had going on but I wanted to literally cry out of sadness. The only time I seemed to have gotten a boost in my spirit was when I went to go vote.

I admit I felt as though having to find time with in my work day to go vote was more of a task than anything. As soon as I hit the polling place and saw there was no line, no wait my spirits began to lift, I felt my excitement grow as I was given my ballot card and I felt a rush of adrenaline as I made my selections and casted my final ballot.

Yet, the joy and excitement I felt was temporary and my feeling of sadness came back up on me again. I took a moment and prayed because I felt bad about not being as excited as the rest of the country that we were finally going to have someone in office that not only looked like me but most importantly would be affective in facilitating change with in this country and the world.

Anyway.. I got to my the watch party my girlfreind was throwing had a glass of wine and some food. I was good. My spirits immediately lifted as I saw Obama take the electoral votes like it was no body's business. I knew I was not going to feel like it was a done deal until McCain made his concession speech and I was quite proud of him for doing it early. Yeah, I said I was proud of McCain he could have challenged the out come in those states that we really really tight but he didn't.

I know some people cried and boo hooed all through out the night I found myself being in such a state of excitement that I could not get to sleep despite the fact that I had to go to work the next day.

In the end this all leaves me with one question, why is election day NOT a Federal holiday?

Considering the fact that Repubs. complain about the unfairness of early voting if you make it a holiday then every one will have ample time and opportunity to go out and vote. Hey, just a thought.

Yesterday the clouds and the rains came, today I woke up this morning to a slightly warm sunny day... must be ominous of the brighter days to come. Congratulation President Barack Obama, I simply can't wait to see what type of change is going to come.