Though I know better to think that I would get a break from accident (my car was hit yesterday) and tragedy after Candy's sudden passing, a part of me was hoping that a break it something I would get. NOT! Life refuses to do such a thing therefore I must endure what ever it throws at me. So far there have been two additional sudden deaths within my family, which right now is to much for me as I am still grieving the loss of my daughter's God mother.
I think the one thing that has blind sided me was my son passing out. I got a call earlier today from my son's step mother explaining that they were in the ER waiting to be seen as my son had gotten dizzy and passed out. She seemed calm, which kept me calm but there was still a part of me that felt empty at that moment...I can't describe it completely I just felt like an empty shell going through the motions. I am thankful my baby is ok, now may I have a sliver of a break from the tragedies and hardships of life?
