Friday, October 21, 2011

Some Thing Is Better Than Nothing...I Suppose

So yesterday morning I stepped on the scale for my dreaded weekly weigh in and the movement or lack there of made me raise an eyebrow at the blasted thing...yes I even considered throwing the damn thing in the trash.

Yes, the weight reading irritated me but what sent me over the edge is when I entered my new weight into the iphone app and I got this message, "Congratulations! You have lost .4lbs this week! Keep up the good work!"....the hell?! Really? I was salty all day yesterday to the point where I was discussing it with my girl friend and had a melt down, which consisted of my saying, "Fuck Weight Watchers, fuck Jennifer Hudson and her new "urms" (thanks TM).

So yeah I had a melt down and I'm over it...some what. Hopefully this week will be a better week and I won't have to struggle as much. One thing I realized though is that I need to start going on more active dates, where we are out doing some sort of physical actively like dancing so I can stay on track with my eating. I am beginning to realize when you are dating some one who has a much bigger problem with food than you do, that in itself can get you hemmed up (I don't need enablers) and that is alll I'm going to say about that.


Have a blessed weekend folks!


Tuesday, October 18, 2011

Randoms...

I figured if I come in here and post an entry of random thoughts not only would I amuse myself and possibly others but I might get over this writing block... Ok, wait. Does not wanting to write about certain things opposed to not writing anything at all because there is nothing else to write about count as writer's block?? Just nod you head yes and keep reading....

Ok, anyway... I joined weight watchers again and I have been struggling with my eating the last few weeks. Who ever said it takes 21 days to create a new habit lied ( I always thought it was 90 days). All Lies! It has been 4 weeks and I'm still struggling. I may not be struggling as much as I was on weeks 2-3 but I'm struggling. I really need to join a gym and start going regularly. I was working out at home but after a while Zumba for Wii and belly dancing got old real quick. I suppose that is the Gemini in me, things get old real quick.

One thing I can say is that I feel as though I'm happier than I have ever been. Thankful, peaceful and blessed just does not fully describe how I have been feeling lately. Something just happened after I moved last month...it seems as though everything is right. Like things are how they should be and I'm happy. I think I have settled in the house enough to wear I can go back to focusing on things that I was attempting to focus on before the move.

Let's see the dating life...errrrr....ummmm....it's active. Maybe a prospect or two...yeah that is all I'm going to say.

This is real random but....

If people really knew what impressed me or phased me then they would stop trying so hard to impress me and/or phase me. Granted I'm not easily impressed by the things people do because I think every one has their own path, their own task and hobbies to tend to which create their own definition of what makes them successful. So having money to spend, knowing people in high places doesn't make my eyes get all big and say "oooooooooooooooo!" that's not me. Some times I wonder does my nonchalant disposition and silence of being unmoved by it all just make people feel as though they have to do bigger, better and more exciting things to get a rise out of me?? Then again I ignore those people so I really don't care. *shrug* I honestly really think I have ADD so my short attention span does not allow for me to listen long enough to care.

What I'm really after is the primary thing which is rather important; a person's character. Who are you when no one else is looking? Are you a complete ass hole ? Are you genuine in your actions and your feelings? That is the shit that really matters at the end of the day.

Anyway...

If you want to impress me then make cupcakes with the creme filling or know where to buy them. Yes fat shit I know but I found the best cupcakes hands down and they been on my mind every since...but I'm resisting the urge. *gulps water and sucks on frozen strawberry*

You want to wow...make me laugh. No really let's joke have a little playful banter here and there. Not every aspect of life needs to be discussed analyzed and or changed...not ever political move needs to be discussed. Can we just talk about aintshitness (TM's term) and trivial things like water?

See let me stop because is going to end up some where it need not end up. On that note. Good night folks!