A Riddle For You??

How many times does a man (one you want to leave you alone) have to leave a note on your car before he is considered a stalker??

Yes, my people this fool left another note on my car just when I thought it was really over. I figured that if I did not respond to the first note then he would let it be and leave me alone. I was taken a back when a family friend walked into my home and handed me a note saying this was on your car. When I read it I felt myself getting irritated all over again by this. I mean I just don't understand his rationale. Why are you going to introduce me to your daughter and I want to have nothing to do with you? We are not together, have not been together for well over a month now and there is no way we will be together in the foreseeable future. I mean damn I made it so he thought I changed my number, I ignored all his emails and he still persists.

Well, my girlfriend suggested I call him and tell him to stop contacting me before I take it to the authorities. I called him from a blocked number and told him to stop leaving notes on my car. He said, "ok. That's it?" and I said, "Yes. Leave me alone." he then tried to down play everything down by saying all he wanted for me to do was meet his daughter. I then reminded him that I do not want to have any contact with him and I want him to leave me alone. He then asked me, why? Why?!? Is he serious? Asking me why? It could be for any reason I damn well please from his childish behavior, to his whining about being broke to his trifling ass momma but I don't have to give him a reason. All he needs to know is that I want him to leave me alone.

Folks let's just say a prayer that he takes heed and leaves me alone.

Notes!

This morning as I was rushing out of the door I had grabbed a note off of my car. I assumed the note came from the trash men who by now I thought would probably be tired of me parking my truck in front of the mail box, thus preventing them from pulling the trash truck up to the front of the house therefore requiring them to actually walk over and bring the trash to the truck.

When I opened the note I realized the it had my name on it and I figured that someone who knew me had to of written it and put it on my car. As I read the note I realized that El, my recent ex had left me a note of apology for all that has happened between us and expressing how much he loves me along with a request to contact him so I could meet his daughter. *blank stare*

I am not sure if I am being mean or hormonal but everyone (my girlfriend and mentor) feel as though it was cute and gave him an "A" for the effort he put into it. Granted he took a risk leaving a note on my car because if my little sister would have caught him then that would have been his azz for real. LOL! Not to say that I don't think it was cute, sweet or highly persistent but I have no real feeling about it one way or another. I suppose my focus is on other things right now like getting together the money I need to move, quoting mover, packing and actually moving. So yeah my mind is not in it...

Gosh, just when I thought I have heard the last from him he pops back up again. Ok, I'm out you Folks have a blessed day!

Unwritten Rules...

My girlfriend developed a system that I have seen implemented across many a female friendships across the country, the Warning System. This Warning System was established to warn said friends that there is an up coming geigh moment (a moment of total and utter mushiness about your man, boo etc;) and then there is the TMI moment where more than what a friend should know is about to be blurted out to the receiving party. Though it would be common courtesy to warn some one before you are about to get all mushy or divulge more than you normally would, some don't give that courtesy therefore it has become a rule.

I noticed within the last few weeks my sorority sister has violated this rule to where she would be locked up if this rule were a crime. She has called me gushing all over about a crush or now some one that she "loves". I need to prepare myself for these overly emotional moments so I won't accidentally throw up in my mouth, or accidentally say what my friend Rashad used to say, "f*ck you and your love" (that was a classic line) and keep it moving. In sitting her down and having to school her on these unwritten rules I figured that I would eventually blog about it but never really quite got around to it....until today.

This morning Rashad wrote an entry about reading his lady's Essence magazine before she could read it and I got to thinking about how my girl's and I do when it come to Essence. First let me say Essence is serious, so much so that I my girlfriend gifted me a two year subscription just so I could keep up with everyone else and join in on the conversations that stem from the articles or advice that is often given in each monthly issue.

So every month my girlfriend will ask me if I have received my copy yet and I say, no. She won't say anything in regards to the magazine until I have received and fully read my copy and vice versa. If there was something real good in the magazine that she felt I could benefit from reading or wanted to discussion this will be met with an overwhelmingly amount of pressure to go and check my mail box so I can read and discuss. When she sees that the new issue is out on newsstands and in stores and has yet to receive it in her mail box then she is hopping mad and once again urging me to check my mail box to see if mines has come.

So when I read Rashad's entry my first thought was it is not that serious it is just a magazine but in really thinking about how "we" (meaning us females) do when it comes to this particular magazine I realized that this is some unusually serious isht. This is some subconscious stuff that goes way back to childhood (at least for me). I remember when my mother and sister would get magazines in the mail and as I would reach for the issue they would say, "Don't touch that I have not read that yet" and eventually I was trained to ask if they have read their magazines yet before I even thought to reach for it. Or, it would be tossed at me after it has been read from front to back.

I can say I have once in my life made the mistake of reading an Essence before my sister and thoroughly got cussed out for it. Once again, this isht is serious. It is one unwritten rules that should very well not be broken. Does it sound trivial? Yes, yes it does but it is what it is. I mean what can one on the other side of the magazine really do??


Have a great day on purpose Folk!

Just A Theory

Before I get into this entry I am just going to fore warn you all that I will be trying some thing new with the blog. I will have le signature after each entry and though I was completely against getting the mind spring box, I think it is called so you all can ask an enormous amount of questions anonymously, I am teetering on it but I am not completely sold as of yet. Yeah, the folks that know me know I hate being questioned. So we will see what ever I so happen to come across and throw on the blog to make it a lil different but most importantly more reflective of who Miss. Lady really is.

Ok moving on...


There is this young security guard down stairs that evidentally has a lil crush on me. It's cute that much I can say about, it's cute. But it brought me to wonder, why? Why do I attract these young men? What is it about me that keeps these young men coming? God only knows I really don't like dating younger men. Oh and yes, I have dated younger men and have lived to regret wasting my time. The conversation is different, intimacy is different it is just all different. For the life of me I don't know how the cougars in the world do it. I just don't understand.


So I decided to do a little research of my own to try to find the answer to this question. Not just because I really want to know the answer but mostly because I am bored and really have nothing else better to do than to probe into certain areas of my life. So I asked a few people who know me personally how old do I look to them. I got a range from 25-28 years old. Also considering the fact that they know me and may or may not want to hurt my feelings or have me wreck havoc on them for saying the wrong thing I ventured out and asked perfect strangers. Yep, I surely asked folks I don't know and I got the same answer, late 20's.

I was going over my results with my mentor and I told her that this must be the reason why the young, young thugs, wankstas, similac smelling guys and nasty ole suga daddies try to holla because they think I am some really young tender (still a young tender I am a 33 year old young tender). At this moment my mentor say, naw that ain't it and proceeds to tell me that young guys like older women. This completely puts a flaw in my theory and my findings and puts me in the position to where I may have to delve into this further.... hmm on second thought that would require for me to immerse myself in their young lil worlds therefore I think not. I will just continue to think that my youthful look is what is attracting the young lads. Hell at this point I have nothing else, except a prayer that an older yet mature man will take the time to stop and talk to me for a bit. It is nice to have conversation about something other than cars, rims, shoes and clothes that the young ones (at least the ones I have dealt with) complain they can't afford to buy.

With that I am out... Going to do some work. Have a great day on purpose folks!

Epiphany...

An idle mind is the Devil's play ground and I have to admit that is true. Tonight I was bored out of my mind! Just me, the internet, space and plenty of opportunity. So I went and looked up Lil Bit's father on the net and found his various pages on different social networking sites and I realized that I have arrive to destination indifference.

I would say there was a time when I would cry just to see his pictures and wonder what was it in him to do the things that he did and to treat our child in the manner that he has treated her thus far. As time went one when I saw the pictures of him with his other children I would literally feel physically sick, then my feelings would roll over into sheer anger and resentment because he was not the father to our daughter that he is to them.

Tonight when I saw his pictures I felt nothing and it brought me to the realization that I feel that way in regards to a few people that I have dated in my past that I still have ties with. I don't care any more. I am indifferent and I really feel as though I have come to this place in my life where I can let it all go and not look back. I feel as though I am really ready to move on into something new with some one new, whom ever that may be...only God knows that.

Anyway, I can say that at this point I truly feel free. I feel as though I have grown to a point as a person where I can let go and walk away from people and feelings that do nothing but waste my valuable time. To the past, the inconsistent, irresponsible, unreliable, indecisive, the immature and the game players; I bid you adieu.

To the mature, real, serious, truthful, consistent, responsible and reliable (among other things), welcome. :)