Hope...

Hope is such a funny thing. Hope keeps you believing, it keeps you optimistic and often time it keeps you in a place of instability and unable to let go when the obvious is in your face. Why not let go when you know you have an inkling you are on a path to no where? Because that hope you hold onto so tightly that propels you further and further in driven by you optimism that it will all be ok, that it will all work out.

Ok, so you all my be wondering what the hell is wrong with her? She is gone for well over a month and comes back with some despairing and borderline depressing isht, well let's just say I read a few of my old entries and I look at where my life is now and I am seeing where having hope can get you some times (in the wrong things and people). I suppose next time in all things I will carry hope with me but truly look at the reality of it all.

None the less I am putting the "closed sign on the door" I will explain that phrase later for those of you who aren't quite familiar with it. It has been a blog entry that is long over due. The topic you put into the you know it's true but just don't want to admit it category.

Anyway, I am out. You all keep it blessed.