Not Every Thing Is For Every Body

A few months ago I wrote a blog about this semi liquid diet that my co worker coaxed me into doing and I quickly remembered that I can't do all the things that the other little kids on the play ground do. LOL! I got sick off of it and I mean SIIIICK. So my having gotten sick along with missing the action of tasting and actually chewing my food I said fuck it and just stopped. I couldn't take it any more. My girlfriend mentioned that Weight Watchers was waiving registration fee for their online program so and suggested that we re start the program together. The first three weeks were easy peasy. I was straight on point with food and water intake. As the fourth week rolled around the newness of it all had worn off and I was slipping back into my old habits and getting real bored with the program.

I began to feel as though I had to fight with myself and push myself to keep going; until one of my friend posted on FB that she was going to a WW meeting and then later posted that she was only a few pounds from her goal. First let me say that I am so proud of her! :) C worked so hard and reached her goal but what was most admirable is that she documented her journey and shared it with others. For some one to open their life up to other people in such a manner is brave for the most part. Once again, congrats Lady! Following her had given me a dose of inspiration to push past the boredom of it all and stick with it. Oh yeah and Jennifer Hudson rolling on the scene looking like she lost almost a whole person really got me motivated too. So after having been on the program for 6 weeks I am down 17lbs. Yeaaaaa me! I am definitely hoping I will be down another 30-40lbs by the end of the summer.


I am trying hard to get motivated to work out but it seems like there is always something working against me. My co worker and I had decided to start walking at lunch time and what do you know I got attacked by these here allergies and was sick. Once I start feeling as though I can go walking with out passing out I have a bathroom accident... last night I was cleaning out the tub so my daughter could take her bath. My feet were on the edge of the bathroom rug and I was on my the tips of my toes, bent over the tub trying to reach the far part in the back of the tub and then it happened...it was like some one came and literally pulled the rug from up underneath the tips of my toes, I fell in the tub and slammed my leg on the edge of the tub. I was HURT! My foot was cramped, my leg was hurt. Lil Bit runs in and asked what happened and told her nothing. She giggled to herself and said, "Looks to me like you fell in the tub Mommy." kids gotta love them. Anyway, I woke up this morning with a sore and very swollen leg. Just ugh!

Such Is Life...

Sicily, 1989 it was... LOL! I love Sophia from the Golden Girls she always started a story off right.

Any way, I guess I am a little sullen today actually I have been like this since Wednesday...I met this man at my job who is a computer tech assigned to my floor. Apparently he was tasked with trouble shooting the bad batch of computers Dell had sent everyone on my floor and had to go around to look at every one's laptops.

When I finally got back from my stint in Aberdeen (it is a whole different world up there) he came to look at my lap top. I threw him my smile :), told him what was wrong with my computer and gave it to him. He brought it back to me with every thing on the screen big and I mean REAL BIG, which required me to call him back to come fix it (think he did that on purpose). That day we began talking to each other via IM and we realized we went to tech school together. What a small world!

We have been talking for the last three week and can I say it is nice to talk to some one that can actually hold a conversation?? Yes it is. So after a phone conversation that lasted until 6 AM the following morning, which by the way got me beat up by a hungry 4 year old with a cereal box 2 hours later,we decided to go out on a few dates and see what happens. We talked all morning on Monday and I snuck over to his cube to talk to him face to face, he walked me to my car and stole 2 kisses (ok so the second kiss was not a stolen one). I was excited (even more after that kiss. LOL!), this is the first time I have met a male version of me and I was looking forward to our date on Saturday and getting to know him over all. Yes, I said "was" because there will be do damn date on Saturday as our company will be sending him to Germany Saturday afternoon for a 3 month assignment.

I am happy for him as I know this opportunity will open many doors for him in his career. *throws confetti* But dammit JIM, I am disappointed on the other end of the spectrum too. This isht SUCKS! This is the only place I can thoroughly show my disappointment because as far as he is concerned I have already put him on the plane with a list of things to send me from Germany.

So right now it leaves me at a cross road, do I move on to the next in my hope to hook up with that one (be of the mind set if I am available when he gets back good , if not oh well)? Or, I put myself on ice for 3 months (try to keep in touch ) and attempt to pick up where we left off when he gets back from Germany?

I know such is life but still... UGH!

Got Some Down Time...

I actually have down time at work. It is a little scary because I am wondering when the when the flash flood will hit but hey I am going to enjoy it while it lasts.

Any way...

I did not make it to the WILD party my co worker threw for her birthday last Saturday night. What can I say? The day in the life of a single mother, my baby was sick and honestly so was I (ok I was not sick but I was not feeling so hot). However, I heard it was off the chain, everyone was tore up from the floor up even the DJ. Not sure if I really would have had a good time...yeah I would have had a good time laughing at all of the highly intoxicated and extremely disoriented folks. People watching is the best thing since sliced bread.


I am trying not to complain about how bored I am as my days are usually filled with 100+ emails, phone calls to the desk phone and cell, IM messages on both the work and personal IM with my having not been to productive in completing my own daily tasks. After reading that being bored is not so bad. Right now I am waiting for these little 20 minutes to pass so I can leave this here establishment from where my paycheck comes from, go home and get the hell out of these heels.

Ehhhhh I just got a last minute request, my drawer is locked and I am on my way out the door. What do? What to do? What tooooo do? Peace out!

All That I Can Say...

Is that I really don't feel up to writing separate blogs so this may be one long blog about many different things.

First up...

Last week I was really feeling the effects of Ms. Candy no longer being here with us. I really felt like I had lost a limb and have spent the last few months trying to figure out how to function with out it. I knew I depended on her but I did not realize how much I had depended on her. I have not quite gotten used to the fact that she is gone as I have been anticipating her scheduled Wednesday texts and subsequent phone calls asking when was I going to drop her baby off for the weekend. Last Wednesday I checked my phone for her text and realized that there would be no text because she is gone. Come Thursday her daughter sent me a text asking if she can see her. I figured we would meet and I would let her see Lil Bit for a few hours. No, she wanted to keep her for the whole weekend which lead to the are you sure you are ready for this talk. I took her down to spend the weekend with her God Sister and I was not worried about her at all like I thought I would be. Can't say the weekend was all that great but it was a rather restful and seemingly quiet. The best thing of all was that I actually got to sit through a church service with out having to sneak out to the bathroom in the middle to discipline her. Ahhhh yes I cherished that moment for real.


Moving along...

As I get older and advance more within my career I have grown a little lax with some of the work rules that I have ie; no dating some one that work for the same company, not socializing with co workers outside of work etc. Since becoming relaxed in these here rules I have established some very good friendships with a small few of my coworkers to the point where I felt they were cool enough to friend on Face Book. BUT there is one issue that I am having and that is socializing outside of work as in attending parties and get together at folks houses.

One of my co workers is having a three day birthday party celebration starting today and ending Sunday; tomorrow night she will have a full on party. Now, I have heard that her parties are WILD and I have seen some pictures that made me raise an eye brow (drunk people being put in trunks of limos), so I am a little nervous. This is requiring me to do something that I don't do much of; going out, leaving the house, socializing and meeting new people. Since yesterday I have been agonizing about hair, make up, clothes, which purse I am going to take...then it hit me! The reason why I don't go out any where is because it is entirely to much work. But I am still going to go and make an attempt to relax and have some fun. Gawd, I feel like I need a 12 step program for being anti social.


Next up...

Last year I had met a man that works at my job. We flirted for a while and I knew he liked me but he never really expressed it to me personally. So my coworker took it upon him self to put a bug in Dude's ear that I liked him and he should talk to me. So we started talking and through talking I found out that he has a girlfriend that he lives with and he is only staying for the sake of their 12 year old daughter, which is fine do you but don't pull me into your isht. Our talks fell off mostly due to me being busy along with other stuff (yeah I can't do nothing with him). So we have recently seen each other in the cafe down stairs, talked and caught up with each other. I told him I had been traveling up to Aberdeen twice a week and he asked about the coworker who urged him to talk to me. I told him he was cool. So, I get up to Aberdeen yesterday and the coworker said I have something to show you. He shows me an email Dude sent him basically saying that it was nice for me to drive up there to train and help him out. Then he said, "either your girl is just that busy or she is too nice to tell me that I don't have a chance with her. LOL!"

Can you all imagine my eyes rolling? Just visual the eye roll please? Now when we first started talking he said, "I don't think I can give you everything you need." and I asked him why he would say something like that and that is when he explained the situation about living with ole girl, not being happy in the situation but staying for his daughter. Ok! Wonderful! I responded you are right you can't give me what I need, then our talks fell off. I am wondering if I missed something? Did I need to write I am not going along with this on the wall or something? Seriously, I don't want no ones husband, man, jump off or what ever new terms these young whipper snappers are using today.

I want a husband of my own that is committed to making things work and putting up with me for life. This man would have to be in the Lord; I mean walking, praising and most importantly praying because I know me. I am realistic about who I am as a person and I know there are timessss he is going to have to pray just to deal with me. I don't mean Lord Jesus help me but knee pad type praying. :) LOL! I am not that difficult and anyone who says differently is lying. LOL!


Ok, it is Good Friday and I am at work :( however I am blessed and high thankful that I woke up this morning to have another chance at being a better me than I was yesterday. I ask that you all please pray that I make is through this party, for if I see some tomfoolery, coonery, skankery and hoery I don't know what I am going to do. LOL! You all have a great Easter Weekend!