Tonight I have been reduced to blogging via my phone because good ole Comcast is having an outage. As I sit here in silence my Direct TV having neighbors are sitting back and watching our country's Commander and Chief talk about how our young men and women will train their Iraqi counter parts on how to protect and serve their homeland putting an end to a decade long war. I consistently pray about the state the country will be in when they return...to many people very little jobs...
Any way that is not what brought me to blog tonight. Pondering a situation is what is bringing me to a point of written expression.
There is this security guard at my job, which my mentor has given the nickname Young Gunz. Young Gunz has been feeling me for months now and when he asked me for my number I graciously declined because he is 10 years younger than I am, I have children, responsibilities and want a whole slew of other things that some one of his age just really is not ready to give. Today something happened and YG stepped his pursuit up a few notches. He called me to discuss the fact that early that afternoon I actually spoke more than two words to him. I found him to be a very smart, witty and intriguing young man...he is also persistent. He called me four times the second was just asking for a chance, third was to inform me that it may not be today, tomorrow or next week but I will give him my number and allow for him to take me on a date and the fourth was to tell me Mariah Carey doesn't have a problem with it. LOL! I have to give it to him he is funny and really sharp, a little to sharp.
Yet and still I don't know what to do. As my girlfriend pointed out I have dated younger dudes for most of my life with the exception of a few but look at the record though. It didn't work and if I just wanted sex then I could see this being a match made in heaven; but I am older, more settled and really looking to have something real and meaningful with someone I have a lot in common with (not to say YG and I have nothing in common). I don't know why I am even pondering this. It is not like twiddling my thumbs and being alone while I continue to wait for an ideal to come along is something I am not used to doing...I suppose if I have to I can do it a little longer. *Sigh* Honestly though it is getting rather old and I don't think I want to continue with the waiting. I swear if this was a Dear Abby letter I would sign it, Yours Truly- Curious and Conflicted.
I resent the Guns being spelled with "Z", but I'll get over that. I think you should go out with YG, be sure he knows your circumstances, and take it slow..there's nothing to lose here
ReplyDeleteLOL! Rashad there is a reason I spelled it with a "Z". When she called him that I immediately thought of that wack group Young Gunz that came out on Jay Z's old label. The group and the song just stuck. LOL!I may grace this blog with an entry about a date later this month. Still pondering on it...
ReplyDeleteWell age is an important factor. But are you SURE that's the issue? You are educated, upwardly mobile, and maybe his "station" in life may be a turn off to where you are and where you want to go? Plus the on the job dating situation is always touchy. Where's Germany?!? Needs this double wide freezer to close!
ReplyDeleteCylia at this point age is the key factor for me. I have not really spoken to him and had any kind of a candid conversation with him to know what his life plans are, what he is doing with himself i.e. school etc;
ReplyDeleteThen the other thing is discretion. If I am dating someone that I work with or works for the same company I need to trust that they are going to be discreet, which is why I forgo at work dating all together.
Germany??? I have no clue what he is doing or what he is up to. He seems to have time to talk to every one else except for me and that is cool. I am fine with that, life goes on and on to the next. Girl I want the freezer closed more than you could ever know.