It's Been A Minute...

Since I last wrote a blog entry. Ok, it has been a little over a week but for me that is a minute. A whole lot has been going on with in the foreground and backgrounds of this thing called my life and most of it I have no control over so I have been continuing to focus on the things that I can control and pretty much deal with at this point.

In not trying to focus on the bad but my little cousin, who is 8 (I am the oldest of 16 grandchildren) was just diagnosed with Pre-B Leukemia and has been enduring tests and chemotherapy treatments for the last few weeks; the battle looks like it will be a long one as they have no set date for when she will be released from the hospital. Though they caught it in the early stages and they say it is curable (and I know that God is good he will heal her) it is all taking a toll on her parents and the family as a whole. So, prayers are requested. Thanks! :) I hate when something like that hits the kids...this is the kind of thing that keeps me up nights starring at the kids while they sleep, praying they remain happy and healthy.

Anyway...

My most recent ex has requested we get back together and I was/am skeptical of it all. It's all good though because he is not making much effort in "trying" to get us back together and my mind is not there... he is probably reading but he knows all of this. The other ex that I discussed in two other blog entries and I have been talking. This person was my friend before we started dating and he will for ever be my friend. We had not spoken in months because I needed time to accept things for what they are and get back into the mind set of him and I having to just be friends (we split due to circumstances beyond both our control). None the less I like having my friend back.

I swear he is the definition of a good man, how a man is supposed to treat and be with a woman. I suppose it is what it is, I am not tripping about any of it because looking at some on going situations of my friends as of late I am beginning to feel happy about being single and not having to deal with the drama, hurt and pain that can possibly come about when in a relationship with someone. Ok, so I am using that as an excuse or cop out so to speak to avoid (my avoidance issues) having to give my love and let down my guard to allow some one in, but it is what it is. What am I to do about that exactly? Who knows?

Moving on quickly...lol...

I have so much catching up and reading to do on everyone elses spots it is ridiculous. See, this is what happens when I take a 5 week Economics course which is to be immediately followed my a 5 week Marketing class... what was I thinking? I want to get this isht over with, that is what I was thinking.