Emotional Explosion...

I learned some thing about myself today, that with some people I have a tendency to set myself aside to make them feel comfortable and to hopefully bring them happiness, often times at my own expense. Then to top it off I repress my feelings about things or even sit back quietly when my feelings are dismissed when I do express them and then that stuff festers...

Today I had reached my limit and I let out all that I was feeling, every bit of anger, resentment and hurt that I have incurred with in a particular situation came flowing out. Did it come out in a tactful manner (like I was trying to have it come out)? Nope sure did not. Do I feel bad? Hayle no I don't feel bad. I was stating how I feel in away so the person I stated it too could really have an appreciation for what I have been thinking and feeling for the past 3 months.

Granted in all likelihood they may not take it in the manner I expect for them to but the most important thing is, I got it out and I feel better. Ahhhhhhhhhhh...

I know now that I need to work on a medium between nice and keeping it way to real. I need to realize if the person really cares and loves me then they won't leave or be too too mad because I expressed the way that I felt.

I also realized that there are some people who care enough about others to really try to compromise so both people in the situation get what they want or at least make sure that both the people feel the way they should feel, then there are those who just don't give a damn just as long as everything is their way.

Mhm, life and bullshit, life and bullshit.